The Bulletin Board of a Believer

I don’t have a diary. What I have is just a Board on which I have pasted pieces and glimmering of wisdom gleaned from wherever and whatever the source. Wisdom has come clothed in strange apparel. Sometimes it is clothed in dogma, sometimes in science, sometimes in the words of a poet. Wisdom it seems is be pretty random and quite quite free.


I do not define myself as an Agnostic simply because I do not know enough to be sure of being an Agnostic. I also am too afraid of making a judgement out of hand and of rejecting dogma. Who knows it may all be true? After all stranger things have been postulated by science. To me everything looks flat, but they say it is beyond the shadow of a doubt that it is round. They have even invented a geometry for curved spaces. It makes complete sense they say and it achieves so much which seems miraculous to me such as space travel, the internet and telephone. I guess the difference between magic and scientific achievement is that the scientists write it all down but the wizards keep it to themselves.


To my limited mind, even if I read all about scientific invention, it still seems tinged with wonder and mystery. Because I know that I do not know it all. I may seem too naïve here, but so be it. They say that innocence has led to great wonders being created than acceptance of the status quo.



I know that one day I have to die. I cannot accept the thought that the Creator would create anyone or anything and then crumple it into nothing. So I believe that I have a purpose; after all He could easily done away with Satan. By the same token I too shall exist.



Scripture tells us that there is a Greater Purpose in all our daily trials and suffering. When I look at the handicapped, the poor and the miserable, I do not give up hope because I feel there is a God and that there will be Justice. Scripture tells me that the weak shall inherit the Earth. I feel it must be so, for anything less will negate the Ultimate justice of God. I know that my fear of God is justified. This is the way most of us believers stay on the straight path, otherwise it would be easy to compromise on principles. I think that religion is not just about adherence to rituals but of following the True Path to God. I have examined the different religions and within these the different sects and I marvel at the similarity betwixt these. All state the same idea of there being a Greater Entity behind the veil and that absolution is only to be found through piety.



I also feel that one can rationalise, reason and justify whatever one does and almost whatever one believes. Many times the gift of reason is twisted to become rhetoric. The philosophers of the world have always said that Good and Evil are inextricably linked in the affairs of men. I have found that to be frighteningly true. May God give me the courage to be always open to the Truth and to follow the Good road.



I also feel that reason is just one way to understand this Universe. I believe that the possible wonders that the human brain is capable of have barely been manifested. I know God is at the heart of it All. And his manifestations in various religions are just aspects of His wisdom.



Religion also teaches me that I am accountable for my actions. I am answerable for my errors of Omission and Commission. This helps me to be stronger and more responsible because I realise that I can lie to everyone but not to myself or God. I also see that much of human ethics and morality as effected by legal systems all over the world are reflected in some religion or another. If religion has given the world so much of what it still views as moral than why are agnostics so dismissive of the whole?



I wonder if agnosticism is a rejection of religious dogma or the desire to have a God who allows exactly what the agnostic wants to do or be? Is it not the subjectivity of a direct access to a God that distorts human society? Is it not the arbitrariness of the decision which breaks the first rule in a society and thereby weakens it? I ask whether agnosticism is not just profound arrogance?



The Pharaohs must know what I speak of, I am sure. Lastly, if Good is what you want and what I want than why are we divided? Surely someone somewhere tells an Untruth. Is it you or is it I?



To myself it seems it is the pettiness of us men that divides the human race. No God would do this but the Satan demon that roams in the hearts of men and plagues all that is noble and gracious in men.