My First Love

Almira Adara November 1, 2000

same places

the same times

the glance again

the sweet pain again...

The elation of the soul,

mine it was.

The sorrow of the leave,

mine it was.

no words

no smiles

no sighs

The feeling in my heart

the constant image

in my mind

my eyes

A new day, a beginning, an end

mine it is.

Thought I didn't

but I do believe

in love at first sight.

Confession 5/24/94

Is it only me?

I can never ask.

Do you feel it too?

I will never know.

Will I ever forget?

Not as long as I live.

Do I love true?

Yes.

Wordless 5/24/94

It hurts

you are so near

but miles away

in your own world

your few friends

all different...

sometimes I think

we are alike

your pain, my pain

your life, my life

but we were never

meant to be together

your life, my life

silent

neverending

a mute love

it is.

Plea (undated)

I cried

last night I cried

I prayed too

for you

to Him

who I was unsure of, so

it was worth a try

to protect you

from THEM

your bloodshot eyes

explained all

your FRIENDS new

Your eyes I met today

the stained ones

I tried to say with mine

Please take care.

Nothing 6/1/94

My foolishness

to think it means something

your glance towards me

you look away

when my eyes meet yours

Oh, how my heart soars

foolishly

afterwards

It doesn't mean anything

just adds to the pain

raising dreams

not hopes

for the unattainable.

My Love 6/1/94

Being with you,

through dreams that will never be.

Pleading with you,

through tears you will never see.

Comforting you,

through love I will never show.

My love,

of which you will never know.

Zachary played the guitar and smoked marijuana. He came from a broken family. The indefinite sadness in his eyes captivated my 16 year old heart and soul. I didn't even know his name until I graduated from high school. There is a tiny little picture of him in his track uniform in my yearbook. Sometimes I look at him and smile.

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