I would like to share with you something that happened to me some time ago. It pleased and in a way ’unnerved’ me. At first I didn’t know what to make of it; I understand it all now.

Today was a bad day for me, and in frustration I was thinking of ’writing’ a letter to God asking Him how it felt to be God; watching impassively and unconcerned, while we laughed and cried through life. I was still wording the letter in my mind when I received this message in the ’quote of the day’ that I subscribe to from an online website.

"I am not distant and angry but am the complete expression of love...1 John 4:16. Today, I remember that God is always with me."

I smiled to my self, the quote had arrived at an opportune moment and after reading it, I deleted it. Yet, at the back of my mind a question was forming; was it a ’coincidence’ or was there a reason why the quote had arrived when it did? Was God replying to my thoughts? Smiling, I shook my head, I was imagining things. Don’t we all do that when God speaks to us?

Later, on that same morning, I received the ’PhaseShift’ newsletter. Over the weeks I had subscribed to it, I generally deleted it without bothering to read it. This one I couldn’t ignore. It had just one message titled ’A message from God’. With beating heart I read:

"Have I told you enough that I LOVE YOU? I AM honored to be with you and while my affection for you is never-ending, it is forever fresh as dawn’s early mist. I, the very Source of you, have feelings for you for which even my domain has found no perfect expression. Hence I try, every moment, to find always more refined ways of expressing My love.

Because my voice is not that of mortals, you seldom hear the thoughts I whisper to you. My body seems to elude your embrace as it hides its vastness in every wind. Did you feel my love as I ruffled your hair, did you sense my touch in the hug of a child? Can you sense Me flow in the water you drink and taste the warmth of My sun in the glass of fine wine? I bubble My champagne and celebrate with you every job well done, every victory won.

Do I not move your heart when one of My instruments sings a song from your life? Who but I could know so well how to play your emotions with a chord that finds a response in your mind? Would I want to refuse you any desire when such denial would deprive me as well? I share in your every joyous orgasm since I AM your closest companion, though often unfelt.

Look about you, beloved, everything you perceive I created for you to use as you please. From my own flesh was made all that is made, I in you, you in Me. Together, forever endlessly free, we experience All as it was meant to be. Even forever is not enough to be all that WE ARE and all we can be.

Long have I held you in immaterial arms, enchanted by your changes into more lovely expressions of all I hold dear. So deeply Am I moved by your presence that I become everything that you are. I came as your child to be taught by you. I was married to you, to be partners forever. Do you wonder if I yearn for your touch and thirst for your kisses? Without you, I would be incomplete.

I also long for the comfort of our shared moments. Even though I AM the ancient of days who cradled you through endless creations, I AM also the youngest of the young. No pleasure equals the ecstasy of the love and joy you bring to Me.

How could I possibly love you more or adore you less? Hear my words O beloved: "I love you in ways I AM only now beginning to imagine." The consequences of these feelings are as yet unknown. Shall we not explore its possibilities together, I in you, you in Me? Let us discover with bated breath where such a love will lead us, the likes of which has not existed until now, a love more glorious than we as yet conceive.

I have grown so fond of you that I need you dearly. I AM so very proud to acknowledge My love. Should you even now shun my affections, at least you will have heard how I feel. Being God, were I forsaken, I could bear the perfection of that love a little longer, till you are ready to accept all it entails. So, I await with patience for you to want my love again."

I was in tears and my heart bursting with love. I was completely happy. The last thing that night I received another ’Quote for the day’. It said: "I will never stop doing good to you....Jer 32:40 Today, I accept the good that God does to me and with me."

My soul fell to its knees in prayer and adoration. I have no words to describe what I felt; but I am sure you understand, for you feel it too!

MANY MONTHS LATER:
Being human, in the course of time I forgot the feeling of awe and humility. Being human I succeeded in convincing myself that it was all a strange ’coincidence’. Then, one hot summers day I read in the newspapers that a special prayer for rain was to be said that Friday in all the mosques in the country. I smiled to myself. It all sounded like the ’rain dance’ of ignorant savages. Ofcourse I knew better! I decided to make a note of the day and date to see what happened. So I could laugh a little more, adding it to my store of ’nonsense’?

That Friday was a blistering hot day and the temperature was well above 100 F long before midday when the congregation prayer was to be said. There was not a cloud in sight and I chuckled to myself while I waited.

I don’t know where the clouds came from, but at about 4PM the sky was heavily overcast. It was as though night had fallen in the middle of the day. Then came the roaring thunder. Angry slashes of lightening tore the sky apart. It seemed as though God was reprimanding me saying, "I AM". Dry mouthed I went out into the garden; drenched by the rain I looked heavenwards and said "Allah ho Akbar!" (God is Great!)