The Fears Within Me

Dip… Dip… Dip… the sound echoes … Echoes tremendously in my mind … in the minds of those who see beyond what others see, hear further than those who jus merely listen … minds that can think! Dip… Dip… Dip… the sound of blood!! …Blood dripping from the soul of humanity! … that’s the acuity I get when I look around myself, and over this life today. SsshhH … listen harder… and you’ll hear it too….

Then a silence… Husshh…. Everythings calm… a deadness that kills. An agony! Pain that pierces through my core … I cant stand it any more … the twinge of guilt runs down my spine, makes me shiver and takes away all my hopes.

The aloofness of cold-blooded animals… wild, two legged animals… makes me shudder and I quiver with fear. Fear for those who belong to me, for those whom I love. Look around myself for an anodyne … for some one who can take me and my loved ones out of harm’s way … out of the way of these hungry, vicious souls… savage beasts, raving wildly to satiate their inhumane, avarice cravings! Nothing seems to stop them! … Mauling the humanity which was once a part of them … pricking deep into the dying humanity!

And I hear her moaning! Weeping with those tears that don’t seem to stop… and I question her Why? What are these for? … and She says ‘ You wont be able to take the answer’ But the adolescent Me insist! She looks up … and she shows me that brutally tortured entity of Hers which had the evidence of once being so absolute and unadulterated! … And I see the blood dripping from her wounds! Wounds that proliferate every time her own Humans hurt her! … So called Humans!

I can’t sustain Her suffering … her misery and grief … step back. … Don’t want to face it … I try to run away from Her … So can deny it all! But She seems to be everywhere I heed! Such a coward I am! I hear a cry piercing through the silence! A shrilling cry shattering into the minds! And I see her weeping in pain! Lamenting with sorrow!

Look at myself then, peek into my spirit… daring enough to face it … Oh I’m becoming one of them too! So selfish I have been … I retreat with terror, a misery in front of me … I don’t want to be one of them! I don’t want to have the stains of this atrocity on my hands! I don’t want to be a part of this annihilation and massacre! Oh God! … Oh I want to Cry! … Cry out loud!

And its all calm again … as still as night! … HusshH … I listen harder … the dripping of her blood is fading away … Is this it? I tremble with the thought of it … and Her moaning is slowly vanishing … the single thought of Her deserting this world frightens Me! …

… As I draw closer to have a sight of Her, it all becomes clear… And I cant believe it! Realize that NO, I was Wrong! … She’s Healing! … And Her wounds are diminishing! … May be its not too late yet! …