career

again they ask me. and again, and again. I thought i’d become immune by now. Sigh, wishful thinking.
"uh what is it that you’re doing? so what will your designation be? what will you work as?"
Its so hard for me to explain...this means so much to me. This experience. But if i say that, i know they’ll just look at me as if i’ve lost it. You mean you gave up that precious degree that would’ve enabled you to earn big bucks, work in the wonderful corporate world, for one you can’t even describe? for one that you "enjoy"?
yes i know im fortunate to have the luxury of choosing what i want to do. Yet, i hate being answerable to people. I tried changing the subject. And then i just resorted to the typical response.If i tell them i will teach, they think oh pakistani married woman - bechaari. Damn you. why is it that our world values ceo’s and not teachers?
there’s so much going on. I wouldnt change it for the world. I know theyll judge me when i go home. I can hear the questions, see the smirks.. already. afterall, i am a woman. they would be shocked if i did an llb wouldnt they? Now THAT would put me UP THERE. this doesnt.
I love what Robin Williams says in DeadPoet’sSociety .. something to the effect of "business, medicine, law - these are all noble pursuits, but love, poetry, passion - that is what we live for"..