Sorry for my failings.

Tahmed sahib. Bahut shukriya.
You have given me a sinsible answere to my question. I need to digest your comments before I can respond to it. But, I still do not know what is pakistani Culture. I understand what you are saying but those things apply to all good societies of the world. Even to the Indians. I agree that we must all maintain certain basic, universally accepted values. But what makes us distinct? I have been reacting to the secondary cultural aspects but that is superfissial, I think and you correctly point out. What about philosophy? That should be a primary cultural quality that Pakistanis should be proud of. But what is our philosophy? Surely, it is not the propogation of carnage towards india, or else where in the world. I feel that I have no philisophy to hold on to. Can you recommend any recommended reading that will put me on a even keel. I feel that I am lost and totally useless sometimes. I work in the adult entertainment industry and participate in act that to some may lok immoral. Believe me although I enjoy it, I am doing it for the money only. I feel that once I become rich I can live a decent life somewhere else where no one knows me from Adam.
Right now I fel torn and often go through phases where i become pro Pakistan and then go the other way. I need some direction. So far on chowk I have found neither, except for some people, like you who have guided me a bit. I respect you sir for your advice. But I think I am a hopleless case who will just go down the toilet. The only thing i have going for me at this time is my health and good looks. That is why I am hired for the movies and also my part time work as an escort. My part time job as an escort is quite rewarding but it is not lasting. In the end I am paid for my sex and then away I go for the next trick. I want to become normal like you guys. But I am torn because of the good money I make. My family does not know this and I am ashamed to admit my failings to them. Please advise me. I will be gone for several weeks but will log in now and then to see your responses. I hope to be back on a regular basis in a few months, but I will be very busy with my next movie which will be shooting in Florida next weekend.
Sorry for using you as a sympathesized. You are a very kind hearted person. I hope I will meet you some day in person, but I am ashamed to do it now.