Being busy and not doing anything at all

Every one dreams of having a job where you are being paid well but Don’t have to do anyting.... I actually have such a job.
So how do I feel about it? and why on earth has anyone given me such a job?

Well no one has actually given me this job, I kind of made my regular job into this thing. Now the thing is, I work for a media company, my job involves me developing business, in the process of developing business, I guess, I became too clever and though hmmm why not I develop business for my self, as I come up with creative ideas (at least I think I come up with them and hope they are creative) and I sell them and that is beginning and end of any media business. But, one crucial cog was missing, finance, I needed cash to start my business. So just like any gentleman looking to get his business up and running, I approached investors. Some of them scoffed, some became suspicious, some interested and some couold not care less.

Eventually I found one person who was willing to invest, but needed some time to arrange the required money. Since the day I got the concent of that man, my day job became a paid no job.
So, I come to work every day, sit on my desk, start my lap top and pretend to work the whole day, without actually doing anything. I have only one project going on, which requires about couple of hours of my time, the new projects that I wanted to start, I have kept them on hold as I want to start those very projects as part of my business.

In this whole affair I learnt one thing, It is the most difficult job I have ever had, to sit in the office from 9-6 everyday, pretending to be working but actually not doing anything. It is driving me insane (also I have to act to be very busy in deep thoughts working away), so what do I actually do the whole day.
In the last two weeks since I started doing this I have written two pieces for Chowk, One Dayers and All and a 3000 word monster Fast Bowling Resources in India & Pakistan, this is my second I log on Chowk, I have written many blogs on my blog www.balltempering.blogspot.com, read almost every article in Chowk and Cricinfo, read online news papers, check my personal email and respond to them, have gone through my business plan many time over, but still, the time simply refuses to go by. It becomes an excruciatingly slow, my head starts feeling numb and things just linger on and on and on and .....

I don’t want a job where I am not doing anything and being paid for it, not out of any guilt or any such matters but to avoid utter boredom that I am engulfed in. Trust me, it is extremely difficult thing to do continously over a period of time.

Well, hopefully in the next couple of days my finances will come through and I will be able to say good bye to this job and start doing things that I really like to do, if not, well I have this job and I will actually start working. what do you think?