sudden images

time is so quik, but it doesnt feel as if anything has truely passed.Have i changed yet, how long will it take until i an feel new agian. Has the hurt finally soaked through so i can move on?
it seems it has at times, but then suddenly i will remember. I will remember it so clearly as if i am there one again, i will become silent close my eyes take a deep breath until it passes. It makes my stomach flip and inside somewhere in my heart something feels it cracked. Maybe i am healing instead of braking, but i have to take a moment to come back.
i have changed my life slowly, but everything takes time . i know now the real pain and the real meaning of happiness but no where am i near either. i am stuck somewhere in the middle.
i cant wait the day these feelings mean nothing to me and i can just remember them and smile. i cant wait for that day.