heart broken

i am extremely heart broken, it feels i am stoned, my heart is stoned, i just dont feel anything other than blankness right now...

i just wonder that how a person becomes so important in your life that his absence (though i don't know if he ever was present) drains out each and every drop of life from u, it numbs u, it freezes u...

i have this strong association with Internet and your presence...our most contact had been through Internet, through emails and now when i don't find your emails in my inbox...i just don't feel like opening and checking my inbox...still i open it to check perhaps you have written something, each time i do that and each time it feels my inbox is empty, as empty as i am..

i miss your words (no matter how general those words may be)
i miss it terribly

i know, u never felt the way for me the way i feel for you, but still the thing is

i miss the very little i had of you..

this silent treatment is killing me...stabbing me...taken life out of me little by little and now i exist without my soul, without any bit of life...without u!

but when was i with u??

i know never...i have never been with u...

why isnt my mind, my heart accepting it..

why i can i live with it?

why cant i live with the little?

why do i ask for more?

why my heart yearns for u?

why these tears come unasked?

why?

why?

why?

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