shit im bitter...

i was lost.. completely.. who cared how you could use numbers to your advantage!??!!so i stared and shifted in my chair. and then left. and here i am... how did this happen? just a few months ago, we were discussing how to make things better..funnily enough key findings -what works and what doesnt.. and now, he and DO ME are at it? how the f--- does it work? the stable become instable, and the instable ones become even more so. a little more flesh? or fresh stock?

hmmm let me think.. I am a MAN.. so let me get to the bottom of this .

do i feel like some fresh stock or will what i have do with the current one?? hmmm, hey what the heck if i can have both, without either knowing, that would be great. decision taken. now lets go on with things like all's well.no one needs to know. and hey even if they do, i'll run from the situation. choose one of them and pretend like the other is a mad obsessive lunatic. End of bastard's or rather man's monologue.

arrrrggghhhh... i could scream... except i cant .. these people around me think im oh so disciplined and oh so composed.. hah!!! if only..

anyway, screw them them all!

shit im bitter...