This is the song that never ends....

it wont go away. and it wont culminate. i want it to culminate. i am what i dream. i dream what i want. and i want what i get. so is it a wonder? is it a wonder that i am where i am right now? is it?

we are in such a difficult circumstance. had i not dug out this skeleton, i think life for some would have moved forward - progressively happy, but i would have been miserable. but i didnt start this tryst with Fate on a whim. right? i yearned for this encounter and its short term rewards - a voice familiar, a hand much-touched and the warmth of a winter hug. .. and so much more. the regurgitating of memories and the making of new ones.

but do i romanticise what is not there? no not this time. I met Certainity for the first time, and alongwith her Answers. It was strange. They both felt awkward, because when i turned to introduce them to you, you were gone. I searched - you'd just been there, telling all - but you had vanished. so I have all the answers i need and all the certainity i ever wanted, but i still dont have the comfort of knowing you befriended them. Hell, you did not even wait to acknowledge these two!! (She curses like a streetchild).

I hear we're meeting soon? I know you're more scared and uncertain than me. But fear wont bring you solace. nor will it give you the power of the criterion between right and wrong. So clear that befogged mind! Brace yourself and breathe...