huh!!!

i dont want to write the post but i am writing it...so u reluctantly had a chat with me...i initiated it...like most of the times in the past...what 7 liner chat, 8 liner chat and that also without any good bye...

we say goodbye when we say hello

so we never said a 'hello' in that case..

i know there is nothing, not a single bloody thing to have a talk on...i keep thinking what to say..becoz really nothing is left to be said...all finished...all dead...buried under hundreds of tons of soil....and still the bloody i wants to talk to you, this yearning never dies...coz there was so much to say, so much which i kept inside and could never make myself to say..and now when you are no more there, oh, not atleast the way you were there before...what can i say??

oooh, well what is that which is buried...well hahahha nothing is buried even then there is this hugea grave...

i know all has become irrelevant, just too irrelevant that its almost never, ever bloody existed...

i have become irrelevant...

damn irrelevant, that is!!!

you think if you keep it up i will become an obligation for you...huh,

dear, have you ever thought that we can do sthings in life without any bloody strings attached, without any fucking consideration of the side effects...no, you are here to judge things like the rest of the world...like the rest of the idiots out there who judge things all by there own standards...

you say you dont judge...but you judge, you have given judgement on what we had (or for that matter as you said we had nothing) all by yourself without taking any consideration of parameters i could have talked about...

you shut down everything, considering all the common practices of a fucking relationship in mind...

you shut down yourself to every thing i said...you never heard what i had to say...

and the state of limbo, paralysis, acute obsession i have been in for the last many centuries...its not your responsibility, i never said it is...but if you hear what i have to say...let me vomit all the toxic, perhaps i would feel better..huh!!!

damm me!!

damm what i have to say and fucking damm about what i feel!!!