Tough..

going through a tough situation..right now..

Daikha Jo Teer Kha Kay Kamee'nh Gaah Ki Taraf..
Apnay Hee Dostoan sey Mulaqaat Hogai

what started as a blessed deed for a friend..turns out to be going against me..totally..
for a folly that should have remained between friends..and usually it remains..
life's best secret do live between friends..

but this one exposed me over to his to-be father in law..who is a good friend of my father..
even then i would have controlled it..
had not my private and precious life on the other edge is not dragged into it..

bloody backstabber..
the very first intuition..the sixth sense told me..it flashed before me..'i better stay away from helping him'..but..this spontaneity..this urge to help..

but then that childish folly is costing too much..
i couldn't face my father..i lied to him..
things might have gone awry..had not i spilled it before my brother online..(couldn't face father..)..

but again..my father stood by me..for all those bickering faults i looked for in him for his indecisiveness is sending me into the oblivious and heavy guilt feeling..
which is the heartbeat of the conscience..for now..

my sharp tongue gifted him (father) with diabetes..
and still look at him..he stands firm..with me..there..

Y Lord..Y..didn't i realise..??