zindgi khawab main khoonay lagi hay ...........

I know I will fight with my self , I will keep fighting with my desires ,wishes , needs, urges ,yearnings , cravings , values and dreams ......for what ? For whom? N above all WHY????? What is left in life to look upon? I am told to be thankful to everything n anything good, which comes your way in life ...I did thank Allah all the time. I did pray for good, peaceful n caring times ...I did ...n I did it with all my heart n soul. Allah ji , I know you are there ..I can feel your presence..I love you though I never saw you. I asked you for so many things n You blessed me always .Its not you who I complain , its "them" , and you know them too so well. I don’t wish bad for them, I don’t wish anything for them .They are out of my mind and definitely out of my heart now. I am left with nothing but a hope, a hope for calm, serene and smooth life ...can I have it without them? YES. I have a vision and have faith in my dreams n wishes. Yet again IF n if they EVER tried to mess up with me ...I am telling u ...I am not going to resist this time I am going to get back on them hard n honestly real hard .
So be aware all of you, u know me, when I am bad ...I am real bad.