birthday blues

today is my new years
today is my whole life over agian
to start another year
a celebration of friends and family
love, joy and happiness
so then why do i feel so empty....

i fell asleep so lonley
woke up so upset
cried in the afternoon
i wonder how i will end today

i have my family
i have some friends
my nephews sang
but i feel so blank

i start to remember the past
when i should move on into my present
and while my future awaits

what am i waiting for
i ask god in my heart
show me a miracle
land it at my doorstep
let it call me on my phone
make me feel it around me

oh god reward me for my hard work
make me patient
forgive me for my past
so i can feel whole agian

happy birthday to me