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I never thought i wud return to this website again, but i suddenly had an urge to write as i cud'nt find ne one else, to express myself. I absolutely cannot talk to my family about it as yet.
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After all these years i never thought i would be sayin this again, but i am in love. Its not a crush, i know it for sure. AHHHHHHHHHHH !

i hav not been able to sleep for the past many days, i just cannot get her out of my mind. I hav lost interest in everything and i hav lost interest in my work as well.

Now the problem is, she has'nt acknowledged it as yet and im lost at wat to do! The longer it is taking, the worst i have started to fear. What if she does'nt approve of it. What she loves some one else. How can i convince her.

I dont know what shall i say, if she refuses.
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God ! i know i hav asked YOU alot of things to do for me and i dont repay my debts, i hav'nt prayed for years now, but i seriously want YOU to help me here. im ready to mend my ways but i just cant think of living without her. its not that i cant, i probably can but i dont want to (sounds cheesy!) but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

God, i seriously need some divine help as i hav done what i cud have, now i just cant force her to it. so You are my last resort for help.