i meander through life, wasting myself, my grey matter and any potential that i may have. i`d truly use it somewhere, invest it all some place if i knew what the f*** i want out of life.

no, my teenage angst and existential crises still haven`t left the building.

Random Thoughts: i work 9-5 so that i can feed and clothe myself.
but i don`t believe in selling myself to the highest bidder (a prostitute with some ideals, i am) and hence, work for an NGO.

it`s pure, simple, unadulterated luck that i`m reasonably well paid.

with a major in econ, i`ve grown to love the discipline AFTER i stopped learning it in formal academic institutions. the subject equips you with a systematic way of breaking down the world system into smaller understandable pieces. and i believe that economics truly is the base and everything else the superstructure ... and that i sure as hell won`t touch econ after a year!!

and what else? well, its impossible for me to initiate conversations with strangers and i have to meet someone at least five times before i can speak to them properly. any earlier, and i`m quite disastrous. palms sweaty, heart pounding, eyes shifting, very self-conscious and swiftly regressing to inanity.

my social life is therefore quite a nightmare ...

oh yeah, bad dancer to boot.

(my moment of self-effacement over, this is when i tell you how intelligent and smart and charming and good-looking i am ... nope. none of the above. chalta hai. khair hai. zinda hoon.
bas agar ek capital-M-wala Masla hai to woh hai qad ka. courtesy my paki genes, i`m truly well-grounded ....
when i was 12 i read somewhere that a man is not a man unless he`s six feet tall. i think it was in the readers digest or some other coffee table publication. anyways, i`m five inches short of being a man ... anyone interested?)

and lastly. someday i`ll write the ultimate novel or paint the ultimate painting or shoot the ultimate film or do SOMETHING bloody fucking miraculous ... i just don`t know what yet ...

"being a superhero is a career option, not childish fantasy"

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after i`d typed in my favourite books and favourite writers and updated my profile I saw that both lists had been largely cut ...
and that`s just not on!! so here, chowk, is the whole spiel:

Favourite books:
"of mice and men", "haroun and the sea of stories", "men without women", "the old man and the sea", "a month full of sundays", most of the discworld novels, "the faraway tree", "the enchanted forest", "the lord of the rings", "golden gate", "the english patient", "The Plague", "Lolita", good porn (*grin* ANY porn) ... well, different mood, different favourite book. so i`ll stop.

Favourite Authors:
favourite nowadays: ishiguro.

bas...

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Favorite Writers: look above

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