The Drive

Again, your use of language and topic reminds me of psychoanalysis. From what I have read by you, I could say that your works are pieces of fantasies, especially in the interaction between the symbolic and semiotic. It seems to me that what you are proposing is an unconscious break with patriarchy that is oppressing you. That is the reason why mothering is a recurrent topic, as it is a pre-symbolic idylic phase in women`s construction of subjectivity. Here, it is not fulfilled; on the contrary, it is related to the act of death. You have narrated other cases of death/suicide. So my question here for you is: do you propose death as an alternative for motherhood, as the only way to espace from patriarchy?
Thanx

remarkable.......

hey j.

good read as always. your trademark embellishments are very restrained as always, almost as if you didn`t want to presume/tarnish the content.

a friend of our had a baby girl last year. she died in the hospital after three months, she had a rare medical condition and the doctors didn`t really know how to help her. i didn`t even go to their place to condole, i was heavily pregnant at the time and felt awkward, apologetic to be parading my own impending motherhood in front of someone who had just lost their own child. i have never had the courage to talk to him about it either. i talk around it when i do talk to him. this piece was very very moving.

shandana

gut-wrenchingly depressing.

Jawahara,
lovely to see you here again.
what a sad story you`ve written! and it reminds me of something that affected our church community five years ago, when one of the priests` wives, after being six months pregnant miscarried the baby. the complete funeral service could not be said for her (it was a girl), but prayers were chanted and said, and she is buried here.
the priest and his wife, and two adorable sons have been transferred to another church, in another state, but i remember what he said as he was bidding his adieu. . .there was much to connect them here. and i remember his voice almost breaking as he said, we buried a daughter here. it wasn`t an easy decision for them to leave.
and so at the end when you say they would return for sasha`s sake, i think they are returning for their own sake as well, no? she is really all they have as well, with all the love they showered on her. they are her connection to life, but she is their connection to life as well. . .that she did live, be it ever so briefly, and that she lives on for them?
best,
ana