My First Love

thank you farangi kush and everyone else for the kind words.

nice poem farangi ji.

Scout:

Your shyness & modesty has won my heart.In matters of heart such values are getting rarer & rarer.What a refreshment!

Dedicated to you:

Here`s looking at you kid

It hurts

to roll your name around,

in my mind.

Memories sometimes seem more

real than the chasm

separating us.

More the pity;

you never really knew,

how furtive glances

warmed my being

like sunlight,

in a winter porch.

We`ll never say goodbye;

we never made it to hello.

I`ll just put you away

like a photo in an album

and take you out on

special days.

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Wassalaam

dost mittar #119

Also on the subject of pigs, guess what contributes more to a breakfast of ham and eggs: the hen merely participates (providing an egg) while the pig provides full commitment (by giving up it`s life in the process). So, dont knock the noble pig, U.Max., while letting the crafty hen off the hook so to speak. (And keep an eye on those devilish roosters as they seek to deflower any female that comes their way).

Scout,URSTRULY:

``Voh pehlay Ishque kee ra`anayeean,Array Taubaa!

Uthha jo durdd, tho dil nay kahaa :`Mubarak ho`.``

Jigar muradabadi?

A woman NEVER forgets her first love.Rest is just a vicarious re-play.

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wassalaam

Scout

I was consciously trying to avoid this thread because it reminded me of my six first loves and associated heartaches. Then I said what the hey lets take a peek whats going on here. And who could have known that it was our own warrior princess who writes such beautiful poetry and she is such a refined writer. wow. Far out Gal! You Ruuuuule.

scout
You have a way with words! Do keep writing.

Sadhana

Hey kiddo:

Prepare for worse
sweet memories linger
we get reborn each time...
a never ending procession of waves
knowingly
they hit and hurt
again and again and
between hibernation
between heaven (seldom)
and hell (mostly)

but

sometimes
(and not too rarely)
we do strike out
and then it is heavenly
mostly...


to love
is to give...


a hard
lesson
to learn
when in receiving mode...

wait a minute! scout..this is your work??

i keep getting email i send to you back..send me some mail so that i can just hit reply.

z

Thank you for all the kind words.

By exposing this excerpt from my diary to people for the very first time, I`ve finally come to terms with this naive chapter of my teenage years.

You guys are the first to know. :)

Why isn`t love as sweet and innocent in later stages of life? Perhaps it`s tainted with societal whims.

Beautiful and sad! Very kind of you to share with us and all the best to you in every walk of life.

Regards

``Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boist`rous and its pricks like thorn.``

How beautifully innocent... how sadly beautiful!

Thank you for sharing this with all of us on Chowk.

RSaxena:

You have a point. I am not suggesting that he shouldn`t have entertained any feelings. I am just saying that if they included someone else then the person should have been told.

- How else will you know if the other person reciprocates your sentiments or not?

Otherwise, telepathy can kick in. It plays an important role when there are sincere emotions in the picture. The hardest part is the Kusht, it requiures. I would not like to further analyze X`s post as it has its own sweetness, raw elements[as you identified] and stated insecurities. As a rule of thumb, you cannot create castles in the air on your own. You may be successful in building one, but I am not sure if you`d be able to retain one.

Re: Zahra

``In my view, your feelings were solid in their contents, but they were one-sided. In life, one-sidedness does not take you anywhere. You`ve got to communicate.``

Well Zahra I agree with your point in principle but feelings are what they are...it`s hard to control them as you suggest.

Almira:

Good touching one..

X:

hope floats..

regards,

T.

X:

I will agree with RSaxena`s insights on your piece. In my view, your feelings were solid in their contents, but they were one-sided. In life, one-sidedness does not take you anywhere. You`ve got to communicate.

On another note:

If you want to win a game of chess or be an active player, what is advisable/practical ?
a) Make a simple move
b) Make a calculated move
c) Don`t move at all for you may kill yourself

You are never in a checkmate position without moving the pieces around. You`ve got to take a step based on your opponent`s move. If there is no step taken then you cannot judge the motives of the other person and vice versa. [Well, it also depends if you are playing a defensive game or you are the winning party.]

Life is a teacher. One cannot overlook whatever comes in ones way. Just keep a constant note of all your observations and experiences, but still move ahead.

Best Wishes,

You`re a smart guy/gal PM. Was it that Obvious. Ha Ha.

You ``take care`` of yourself.